If you ask me if being gay is a choice, I would say YES
wholeheartedly. I chose to be gay. I chose not to be straight. I chose to like
girls. I chose not to lie. I chose to be happy. I chose to be me. Just like you
chose to be straight. Just like you chose not to be gay. Just like you chose
not to lie. Just like you chose to like boys. Just like you chose to be happy.
Just like you chose to be you.
So why won’t you let me be happy? Why am I not special? Why
don’t I deserve everything the world has to offer? Why won’t you share? Why
don’t you care? Why can’t you understand? Why am I different?
I’m not trying to
take anything away from you, I just want to be like you, happy. I just want to
be recognised. I want to be equal. I only want to share the basics like love,
peace, marriage, hopes, dreams. When has love ever hurt anyone? How is my love
going to hurt you? Why won’t you let me love? Why are you so selfish? Why won’t
you fight for me? Why don’t you love me? Am I that different from you?
If I’m going to do this, I’m going to do this right. Take you out to dinner, get to know you. Feel the chills when I kiss you. See fireworks when I make love to you. Hold and comfort you when you are sad. Hug you when you are happy. Relax you when you are tense. Cuddle you when you feel lonely. Calm you when you are angry. Wake up next to you in the morning. Kiss you when I want to. Serenade you because you deserve it. Cherish you because you are precious. Appreciate you because you are amazing. Fight for you because you are worth it. Love you because I can. Plan my future with you because you are all that I want. Marry you because you are the love of my life. Raise a daughter with you. Fight over silly things with you. Take care of you. Do anything for you. Grow old with you. Die for you. Die by you. Most of all, love you. Love you like no other. Love you the way you should be loved. Love you because you deserve all the love in the world. I want it all. Not just a one night stand.
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." -Marilyn Monroe
Being in the right place at the right time I believe is all you need. This is Strategic Positioning. This rule governs my every move. The Pretenders once said “once in a while, two people meet, seemingly for no reason they just pass on the street. Suddenly thunder, showers everywhere, who could explain the thunder and rain but there is something in the air’’. Depending on where you are at a particular time -- your life can change, either for the better or for worse. But we make the best out of what we have. You make do. Life has no rewind button, undo command, delete key. There is no time or chance to change what you have already done. You just have to live with the consequences. In the end, if and when these consequences work out so well for you, you wonder ‘what if I didn’t make that wrong turn at that particular time or crossroad in my life’, would I even be here? Would I have ever known, understood or experienced what I am experiencing right now? Maybe, just maybe what I’m experiencing right now is better than I ever imagined the supposed ‘right’ path would have been.
So rather than complaining about what you may not have, or what you could have had, think about what you have experienced in this unknown path. Don’t cry over a lost love or a broken heart, because "someday someone will come into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else". If you are still not satisfied with yourself, next time, position yourself correctly, strategically. May it be a restaurant, at work, on the bus, cause who knows who will walk through that door. If you were sitting at a restaurant and your soul mate walks in and you are turning your back towards them, you are going to regret not believe in strategic positioning. After all what you do when the opportunity comes along matters the most. So think strategically, position strategically, live strategically.
People say they want to find themselves. They move cities, move countries and make all sorts of changes to ‘find themselves’. what is it really this fad of ‘finding yourself’, everyone if doing now-a-days? It sounds as impossible as finding Waldo. In my opinion, it is doing those things that you could not do before. Being free of your inhibitions. Free from judgement. Free from a previous life or surrounding. It is freedom. The state of being free. It is not the same thing as peace. You need peace to be free. But having peace does not give you freedom. You may have peace but not the freedom to do what you desire or be who you really are. To me, freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose. You are who you are. No matter where you are. You are made up of the people that surround you. You are who you are because of everybody else™. Even though you believe you have ‘found yourself’, it is temporary. You come to this epiphany only because the environment around you has changed, not that you have actually changed. It’s just that you have a better understanding of your likes and dislikes, your wants and needs. You will always be the same person. Always have, always will. But how courageous you are to live your life the way you want to without being affected by your surroundings depend on the support you get from that surrounding. The moment you go back home or the place you started at, even after you have ‘found yourself’ you are just going to be the same person you were before you went out looking for yourself. Nothing about you changed, only the surrounding environment. So there really is no ‘finding yourself’. You are always going to be the same person you always were.
If you really want to ‘find yourself’, are you ready to be courageous enough to change yourself and be who you are or who you think you are, no matter what your surrounding environment is? Are you ready to live without inhibitions? Are you ready to live? Are you ready to love? Are you ready to be free? Are you ready to be YOU?
Only love can break your heart. Only lovers will come and go making you feel ecstatic at one time and worthless at another. Only time will tell when someone new will enter your life and make you feel alive again.. Only time.
When that time does come, I have one important thing to say.. Only one.
“I don’t ONLY want a memory, don’t even think about saying goodbye, because I want a love that will last!”.
Happiness. The Oxford English Dictionary defines happiness as ‘Feeling or showing pleasure or contentment’. It is also the quality or state of being happy, ergo Happiness is a state, a state of mind. Pleasure, joy,exhilaration,bliss,contentedness,delight,enjoyment,satisfaction are all words that describe happiness. No matter who you are or where you come from, the simple things in life can make you happy, instantly. Rich or poor, big or small, Asian or Caucasian, happiness is global. Happiness is all around, you just have to find it, seize it, live it and enjoy it in its purest form. So have a Happy Day, Happy tomorrow, Happy Birthday, Happy February, Happy Year, Happy 2011, and most importantly have a Happy Life. Happiness counts. Happiness gives you memories that are worth sharing with your grandchildren. Happiness is a state of mind, always was and always will be.
One fine summer day at the Museum of Fine Arts, Boston, MA, my heart was stolen by a 1954 photograph by Richard Avedon. It was an exhibit of his 1944-2000 collection of fashion photography. He is a very famous photographer that did many-a-cover pages for Harper’s Bazar, Vogue etc. and worked with an impressive number of celebrities, including the Beatles (the four psychedelic individual portraits used in their ‘1’ album- if you see it, you’ll know what I’m talking about), Marylin Monroe, Audrey Hepburn, Suzy Parker and so on.
While I was slowly appreciating the ‘Paris by Night’ collection on display, I came across one particular photograph, the very photograph that now sets the benchmark for any and all fashion photographs. It portrayed Sunny Harnett stepping out of an old black Ford, wearing a long evening dress by Dior with a big bow on the front of her hip being greeted by a butler. From the moment I saw it, I fell in love. I stared at it for hours. My friends didn’t think much of the photograph but I was hooked. It was the most beautiful piece of photography I had ever seen. I am not exaggerating, it was the most breath taking photograph I had ever seen. The way the he caught the light that hit her protruding hip and the flirtatious look she gave the butler will stay embedded in my mind forever. I knew I needed to have at least a copy of that photograph for myself.
Love struck, I Googled it for days, but just could not find it. Heartbroken, after months of searching I gave up and finally went back to the museum to take pictures of it as memorabilia and as proof for anyone who reads this post. You should consider yourself lucky because you can see it for yourself now. However, if by chance you do get to go see it for yourself one day, take your time, take it all in, and I truly mean all, stare at it for hours, ignore everything that is going on around you, you will realize what I was talking about and how it made me feel and I sincerely hope Sunny Harnett has the same mesmerizing effect on you as she did on me and you too would fall in love.
The perfect song for the weird, lowest in 61 years, not so tropical weather Lanka is experiencing currently. So sit back,relax and totally fall in love with this song.
no matter who covers this, it's always awesome, and it's always just like heaven to listen to.
also lend an ear to the Katie Melua and Taking back Sunday versions to fall totally truly deeply madly in love with this song just like I have.
Someone once told me “All Disney songs make a lot of sense, they are timeless”.
It made me ponder on all the times I have sat down in a daze and dreamt big dreams. Big, happy, colourful dreams.
I’ve dreamt of things that most people would consider, ‘childish’.
I don’t blame them, for fairies and elves for instance were stories created by parents to keep their little ones entertained. But the fact remains that children were entertained. No. They were more than merely entertained they were enraptured by these tales. I am envious of children who spend each moment awed by iconic characters like Mickey Mouse, letting their minds wander into far off places only known to them. No-one tampers with their imagination.
I’ve realised that as we grow older we all spend our lives trying to accomplish goals and grab at numerous opportunities. We are all running a dangerously competitive race willingly or unwillingly. Most of us are so wrapped up in our daily routines that we forget to notice, let alone appreciate the bigger picture, the wonders of this life.
Disney helps us recall the magic we dusted off somewhere along the way. Those who think it childish to dream, and to be immersed in the rainbow of colour of epic Disney movies; they are missing out on too much. They’ve grown up and tucked away the glitter and glam of their imagination.
So, dream as if you’ll live forever and live as if you’ll die today.
I post this song, telling you what someone once told me. “All Disney songs make a lot of sense, they are indeed timeless.”
